“I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief!”

Once upon a time I thought I knew all the answers. I had a Bible verse for everything. All anyone had to do was believe and all would be well. That seems so long ago now.

Yesterday, unimaginable tragedy invaded the life of the Ferguson family in Gulfport, MS. The life here of my good friend, Les Ferguson, Jr. will never again be filled with the sweet presence of his wife, Karen, and son, Cole. Evil in the form of a twisted soul violently took their lives.

Unbelievable. Totally. Yet true.

I’ll confess. I do not understand this. Why was anger and violence visited upon such a loving, gentle Christian family- a family dedicated to gracefully serving God? It all seems so desperately out-of-context. So– unbelievable.  How do we even go about processing such a tragedy?

I can offer up those Bible verses. I am well acquainted with the theology developed to address suffering and evil. It is solid. It is reliable. In the detached world of hermenuetics, it all makes sense. I believe it.  But we don’t live in that world.  Yesterday again reaffirmed this harsh reality.

I talked briefly with Les yesterday afternoon. Well, not really. I had no words, nor did he. I had no Bible verses to make this better. It is senseless. I am angry that Karen and Cole were taken away like this- under these circumstances. I am hurting with Les and his boys left to deal forever with the aftermath. I cannot imagine their grief.

I do believe that God is at work within this tragedy. I do believe that his Spirit immediately began ministering to Les in ways beyond our ability to grasp. I do believe that eventually all injustice will be met with God’s justice and eradicated. I do believe that Cole will be forever whole and happy. I do believe that Karen and her indomitably sweet spirit is alive and well in the presence of God. I do believe.

Lord, I just need help with my unbelief. I need your grace as I process the pervasive nature of evil. The purveyors of evil seem to continually win the day. Yesterday brought that home again to me in a personal way. This I do not understand. I am reminded of the pleading question of the martyrs in Revelation 6:10, “How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?” 

God, “I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief!” (Mark 9:24)

And Holy Father, please continue to wrap your arms tightly around Les, his boys, and their entire extended family. I believe you remain the answer to their grief.

And one more request Father: Come, Lord Jesus!


6 Responses to “I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief!”

  1. Danny, every word that reminds us of God’s care and plan is helpful for JeannaLynn and me today – so thank you for your expression of frustration, anger, and love and faith.

    We’ve all had a close connection for a long time. I’m glad that our friend John could rush to Les’ side – for Les, for himself, and in a way for us, too.

    I wish we could all have a group hug right now. We need it. God is invited.

    Richard and JeannaLynn (Dagwud and Blondy)

  2. James C. Guy says:

    Danny….with all my degrees in counseling / psychology and experience in ministry….don’t know what to say either. Words just don’t do it. Even words in prayer don’t do it, but that’s why we have the Holy Spirit to search our spirits and “utter groanings for us” that we can’t know or understand.
    God’s words….

    Romans 8:26-27 (NIV) 26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
    27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.

  3. One of the most appropriate things I’ve ever read.

    • Rick Benson says:

      Bro. Danny, Amen! Your words are true. I spent some time with the family today, You are right there are no words to say. There was alot of hugging and crying.
      Thanks for sharing this, Rick

    • Ken Laney says:

      Danny, I do not see how what many of us who know and love Les and his family could have the feelings we have in our hearts at this moment expressed any better than you worded in your words above. Thank you.

  4. David Pryor says:

    I quietly and sincerely amen your thoughtful words of comfort and of frustration. I so much look forward to the day when this sort of thing will never invade the lives of God’s children. Thanks David

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