Have you ever been at a faith crossroad? At a point in which doubts start to creep in? It could be triggered by any number of events, but it shook your faith foundation, moving you, perhaps, from confidence to crisis. If you have, be assured that you are not alone. It happens to many, if not most. Life just has a way of doing that.
I think about a time in Christ’s life when it seemed those all around him were having a crisis of faith (see Mark 9:14-29). It followed the incredible experience of the transfiguration—which should have definitely been a faith confidence booster. But it was not yet evident in his disciples. As the crowds surged around Jesus (which was the norm during the early part of his public ministry), he took note of his disciples arguing with the “teachers of the law.” From what we know about these teachers, arguing over some matter of the Law was what they did best. Repeatedly they attempted to draw Jesus into the fray, but he never took their bait. Apparently here, his disciples did—hook, line and sinker—and he was curious to know why. So, he asked. This introduced him to another person—a father of a demon-possessed child—who was having his own confidence to crisis moment.
“I BELIEVE; HELP MY OVERCOME MY UNBELIEF”
It turned out that the argument had to do with the failure of Christ’s disciples to exorcise the demon from the boy. How and why their failure devolved into the heated discussion with these teachers, we are not told, but by reading the text it is evident that everyone is feeling the frustration. The desperate father was in panic mode. Even Christ reacted, exclaiming, “O unbelieving generation, how long shall I stay with you? How long will I put up with you?” Not a lot of confidence—just crisis. But that was about to change.
The boy is brought to Jesus. The father then appeals for help; for healing. He says to Jesus, “if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.” “If you can.” Here he stands before the King of Kings; before the Messiah, who has demonstrated again and again his ability to heal, and he all he could muster was, “If you can.” This is what crisis does to us. We doubt. We question. We hesitate. We hurt. We know God is there, but we still wonder why we are suffering; why our prayers are not answered; why things are as they are. And we find ourselves struggling, while expressing the exact same thing as this dad. “I do believe, Lord, but sometimes, when things are really tough, I need some help in dealing with my unbelief.” Thankfully, just as both the father and the son discovered, Jesus can provide us that help.
“EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE FOR ONE WHO BELIEVES”
This is the amazing answer of Jesus into this situation. If it seems too good to be true, well, it isn’t. A little context helps though. Jesus is not speaking about winning the lottery, but about faith in him; about moving back from crisis to confidence; about taking these immature disciples, arguing instead of healing, on a faith journey that ultimately would lead them to grow so confident in their faith that they would change the world; about us believing, like with this demon-possessed boy, that Jesus really is the answer. So, how do we get there? Here are some suggestions when life has moved us from confidence to crisis.
- Take it to God. Just as the father finally did in this story, we do not hesitate to take our doubts, our struggles, our hurts directly to our heavenly Father. We do not try to handle them ourselves alone. They are bigger than us and our ability, regardless of how strong we think we are. We express them to the Father. We confess our struggles. His shoulders are more than adequate to handle them. We have the invitation to do so. “Cast our cares on him, for he cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7; see also Hebrews 4:16-18). So why hold back? Job didn’t. He poured out his soul to God. David also. Read some of his Psalms. No matter what the crisis is—a diagnosis; the loss of a job; martial difficulty; mental illness; financial insecurity; death of a loved one—take it, doubts and all, to God.
- Be honest. No reason not to be totally transparent; to express whatever it is we are feeling. Again, he can handle it. We need to be honest with ourselves too. There are some things above our paygrade—that we cannot handle like a demon-possessed son. In these crisis moments, we should not go around pretending that everything is fine, when it isn’t. The New Testament is full of people honestly, desperately seeking out Jesus with that transparency rewarded. If we desire help from God, don’t play games with it; don’t act like doubts don’t exist—own up to them before God and see what he will do with them.
- Wait. Now, here is the hard part. None of us like to wait. When we are in crisis, we want it over—and yesterday! When pain comes, we seek immediate relief. Where is the pill to take, right? Sometimes, thankfully, as in this story, God does respond quickly, but not always. Recall Habakkuk’s honest statement (1:2), “How long, Lord, must I call for help, but you do not listen? Or I cry out to you, ‘Violence!’ but you do not save?” Wow. Who cannot relate to that? (BTW, I recommend reading both the Old Testament books of Habakkuk and Job when dealing with doubts.) This is us, right? But I also am reminded of what the prophet Isaiah shared (40:31), that they who “wait upon the Lord” will mount up on wings as eagles and will run and not grow weary. Waiting—while not much welcomed—sometimes is the only answer. It gives God the chance to bring about answers and blessings in his time. Isaiah also wrote this: “Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore, he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait on him!” (30:18) So, in the midst of doubts, counter them with God’s grace and compassion, which he longs to share and realize there are blessings to be found, even while we wait.
- Challenge our faith. Crises are challenging, which means we have to raise up our faith to meet them. This is exactly what this process is—of returning back to confidence from crisis. We accept them, honestly take them to God and wait on him to deliver. This is how faith grows. This is how his early disciples went from being unable to heal; denying they ever knew Jesus to being able to take the gospel to the world. They did not allow doubts to defeat them nor did they give up when they failed; they just kept on believing and processing their unbelief through Jesus. Remember when Christ compared our faith to a mustard seed that would eventually grow into a large tree (Matthew 17:20)? That does not happen if our faith finds a comfortable spot on the recliner and sits emobilized. It has to have its exercise to be strong enough for the crisis.
Here is what renowned Christian author, Timothy Keller writes in his book, The King’s Cross, about this story:
Jesus could have told the man, “I am the glory of God in human form. Purify your heart, confess all your sins, get rid of all your doubts and your double-mindedness. Once you have surrendered to me totally and can come before me with a pure heart, then you can ask for the healing you need.” But Jesus doesn’t say that—not at all. The boy’s father says, “I am not faithful, I am riddled with doubts, and I cannot muster the strength necessary to meet my moral and spiritual challenges. But help me.” That’s saving faith—faith in Jesus instead of oneself. Perfect righteousness is impossible for us and if you wait for that, you will never come into the presence of God.” (Page 121)
Doubts are not going away. The world is atmospheric with them. As in this biblical story they can seize the moment and hold sway. But they are not faith defeaters. If we transparently turn to God in them, we can actually emerge stronger. Our belief—if processed with Christ—can inform our unbelief and even produce blessings. It did for the father in this story. It did eventually for the disciples and it will for us. Don’t forget prayer in the equation though. Jesus said of the demons terrorizing the young boy, “This kind can come out only by prayer.” Doubts can disappear through prayer too. Lord, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”